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This story is now published as part of the anthology ‘Loyal and True’.

Michael had always been a bit indirect.
When Sarah fell pregnant, he failed to react the way she wanted him to.
He hesitated.
She wanted him to hug her and tell her how pleased he was.
He was pleased, but he was also a bit shocked. To say that he wasn’t expecting this was an understatement.
She didn’t take his hesitation well.
She cried. She cried a lot.
Belatedly he told her he was extremely happy about this news, but by now she was inconsolable.
He went away. It seemed like the wise thing to do.
He knew that he would have to convince her that he was ‘on board’. That he wanted the child and that he wanted her.
He found the high chair and the small table at the local second-hand store.
He placed them outside her house where he knew she would find them.
He hoped that she would understand.
The high chair was for the baby, and the table was for her. A small table just big enough to hold her dreams.

11 thoughts on “Indirect.

  1. Oh, bitter sweet. My boyfriend (later husband) shouted ‘bloody prove it!’ when we sat on a park bench, and I told him I was pregnant. He got up and physically ran away down a hill. Luckily, he eventually came back, and we’ve two daughters and have now been married ten years.

    Scary thing, making new lives.

    Lovely post x


    • Thank you for that very personal comment.
      Scary thing indeed!
      I’ve often told my sons that they are VERY lucky to be here.
      I never felt the burning need to have children. I think that you REALLY should want them before actively trying to make one, but then nature comes along and says ” making plans are we, I’ll show you”. Children tend to arrive whether we like it or not.
      My ‘not usually’ take charge wife told me we were going to start a family. There is something very powerful about a woman who usually wants to discuss and come to a shared agreement suddenly saying “This is going to happen!” Who was I to argue?
      I’m not sure how the conversation got started but I was talking to the very mature lady who works at the Chemist shop and she happily told me that her marriage was the ‘shotgun’ variety! She has been happily married for 30 plus years. It was her honesty that I enjoyed. There is a certain age that you get to where you have been through so much that you no longer care if people judge you. I kind of like that.
      There is a lot of pressure on blokes to react ‘the right way’ at certain moments in life. The truth is most of us are just trying to put one foot in front of the other. We are trying to figure out where we fit and trying to look tougher than we are. Blokes are ‘expected’ to do and to be all kinds of things, and a lot of us are not equipped to cope.
      Females seem to do a better job of equipping the next generation of females with the necessary information they will need to be good females.
      A lot of dads are like mine. They don’t say much, they might teach you how to kick a footy or hold a cricket bat but as for all the rest of what it takes to be a man you are pretty much on your own.
      If you are lucky you will have a dad you can watch. A dad who leads by example.
      But it would be nice if he said something occasionally!

      I’m glad your fella came back and I’m glad that you cut him some slack. We are not a bad bunch, we just need a little time to catch up sometimes, and mostly you see the best of us when we are trying to please you.


  2. Great piece of writing Terry. Love how concise it is, yet how layered and full of meaning it is.

    Being a Dad is the second hardest thing I’ve ever had to do. The hardest is balancing being a Dad, a partner and a selfish person. Still wouldn’t swap it for the world though. I over think a lot of things so can sympathise with Michael, but I aspire to have some of the wisdom he’s shown somewhere inside me too.


    • Thank you very much for your kind comments and I’m very glad that it had an effect on you.
      Being a dad is certainly not like anything else a man is asked to do. I too would not swap the experience for anything. Yes it is hard, very hard at times but it is work worth doing.
      Don’t worry too much about wisdom, it is in there and time helps it to rise to the top.
      I understand the balance bit as well; it’s a constant battle, and as long as you are aware of it you’ll be fine.


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